We are laid over in Chicago right now. I ate breakfast, and now I am ready to sleep. I still feel numb to the experience. I cried when I left Pandy because my mind has registered that I will not see him for a few months. On the other hand, my mind will not acknowledge the change I am about to experience. It feels weird and unimaginable. Maybe it will hit me after this 13 hour flight or maybe when I finally see Beijing.